Guilty

• Song Album: Type 4: City on the Type of Forever
• Song Name: Guilty
• Song Length: 3:48
• Song Lyrics: Visions of images of the hate I taught Friendships forfeited over the way i thought Distance from the intimate instances of the of pain I caused Reject forgiveness from the slain i’ve fought I was the worst brother, and even worse boyfriend The type to hurt others, as he the cursed orphan How can I sleep in in peace and dream of a better day With history of street violence upon my resume The hardest part is living with the choices Cuz i was contributor to the poisons I would take a clear then limit it with distortions I would take my pain and then give it a sick importance My path was too attached to dark kismet My heart missed it While keeping everyone I knew at arm’s distance I hope what you see now’s a stark difference But i’m accounting my for parts in this Seeking harsh sentence I’m guilty No need for a plea or defense counsel I’m guilty I’m guilty No need for debate or deliberation I’m guilty Worthless and aloof Violence was a language I was versed in since abuse I remember nothing, except the numbness from the cries My mother gave me the name of a fuck that she despised I was full rejected, wearing the pain as camouflage As every relationship I would learn to sabotage I come from the anguish, of the abandoned and forgot Took out on whoever was on the block This continued in Army, I was depression and despair Volunteering my services for death and didn’t care I went straight from Juvie, cuz It was that or serve the term out Facing down on a weapons charge, outlook looking burnt out This wasn’t a movie This was my family’s karmic debt The lifelong affliction of a disgraceful army vet Heart beset with large regret Can hardly guess I don’t know what else i’ll charge with but I’m guilty No need for a plea or defense counsel I’m guilty I’m guilty No need for debate or deliberation I’m guilty An adolescent minded hoodlum I refused people my help. Said no, when I knew I could’ve I didn’t know then but aggression was my default Any energy less than respect and I would tee off I hate to admit to have told secrets And I’ve cut good people off for no reason A whole heathen Whose broke every law below treason Who cursed every god and known season What else has got to stick? I’m self obsessed, absorbed, and wreck a lot of shit. I’ve been just as selfish as any spoiled only child. Been a greedy and scheming Ferengi on the prowl. To a christian I am just a sinner To the muslim, I the kafir must meet Allah front and center No nirvanas or canned heavens but If they did ever exist, I own every transgression As guilty No need for a plea or defense counsel I’m guilty I’m guilty No need for debate or deliberation I’m guilty
• Song Link: https://open.spotify.com/track/7qaRUsoBbNX989qYQ3QHY0?si=b5d334d33b674c40